Monday, January 9, 2012

29 days, but who's counting???

Oh, that's right....I AM! 

A woman told me a few months ago that she LOVED being pregnant and never felt sexier than when she was pregnant with her son (I guess she carried very differently with her daughter).  I'm not sure what this woman's pregnancy was like, but I don't feel the same. 

Don't get me wrong, it's pretty amazing that a life is growing inside of me right now, and the fact that I can do it and men can't, gives me an added sense of power.  However, I am not one of those women who love being pregnant and could be pregnant all the time.  I miss going more than 30 minutes without a bathroom break.  I miss my wardrobe and am very sick of my maternity clothes.  I miss sleeping on my stomach.  I miss raw sushi and raw oysters.  I miss having a cocktail with dinner.  I miss walking up the stairs without feeling as though I just ran a mile.  (just to name a few...)

As my due date rapidly approaches, I am experiencing a whole slew of emotions.  I am excited to get back all of the previously mentioned items that I miss, but am nervous about caring for this living person and not destroying his life.  Mostly, I am sad that mine and Steve's time as "just a married couple" is almost over.  I didn't plan to have kids at all, but certainly not this soon into my marriage, and really love life as the two of us.  I know a baby will just enhance the love we have for each other and we will find new ways to have fun (or hire lots of babysitters), and so although life will be very different, it won't necessarily be different in a bad way. 

I am now going to the doctor weekly and go again tomorrow, but as of last week, I was about 1/2 cm dilated and his head has been in position for about 3 weeks.  So, let's all say a quick prayer for him to come a little early so mommy can have some sushi.

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